decisions and choices ..............

Sometimes we are faced with some of the tough decisions that will make or break us in life...I can give my own personal account of this and feel comfortable that i am accurate ! Living in the public eye is not a easy feat and to be under the microscope of the world is not a easy task .
When living in reality started it was a fire that could not be put out . The fury in which we as organization presented was second to none then it became a business and the focus was put on logistics and appearances well I WILL not allow this to happen .
The message of reality will always be the same making better decisions and choices because the world can not tolerate any less and will not tolerate any less .
Recently I have lost a close friend who I leaned on regularly due to a choice I made I realize that not everything I do is going to meet the approval of some and that is a reality I live with however I have followed my heart that is what GOD has given me one for to live and to breath and to follow what it tells me.
I know that only time tells the best story and reality reveals itself when it chooses to . I CAN NOT IN GOOD CONSCIENCE DENY THAT MY HEART HURTS AND I GRIEVE AS OTHERS DO........
We as worldly people are sinners and no one is perfect all I can do is do better to reach the standard god wants me to live in. That standard is that of a divine nature not a worldly condition and, in time I believe my ?'s will be answered.
Until then I will spend my 30 alone with GOD and I will start it as I do with psalm 6 and finish with Matthew 7.
GODS LOVE I SEND AND A REMINDER THAT FORGIVENESS IS ONLY A PRAYER AND AUTHENTIC EMOTION AWAY.
MIKE

...............time heals

They say time heals and forgives all..........I wish that I could say that it also removes the scars of yesterday however we all know that a scar is a mark that never leaves us. I RECENTLY have been involved several attempts to lead some young adults down the road of change .
These young adults have a constant battle that makes them a bit more resistant to change than the average person there struggle is more like a war that life and death are in the tip of a syringe ........that's right heroin and let me be the first to say this is the nastiest of all the poisons .
It is heartbreaking to watch and listen to the excuses and manipulative words spewing out of the mouths of these people but as a well known fellowship says "but for the grace of god i go on"
I ve placed several people in to treatment recently and I worry about each one of these people as if they were my own family but the reality is that only a handful of people who enter into treatment each year make it and stay clean........it is sad but it is true !!!!!!
I want to ask all of you to stop and pray for the addicted today,pray for there families and loved ones because the addict is not the only one going thru this war the families are as well.

GODS GRACE
MIKE

loss..........

Some times life is just not fair the ones we love the most will grow old and pass on .....I am so close to my "Nanny" {Italian's word for grandma} recently she has taken ill and i am not really sure how i am feeling about it but i know that no matter what the outcome is she has the faith and strength of hundreds and still has the ability to bring a chuckle to my heart and a tear to my eye .
I would like to think we all have someone like that in our lives. So today I want you all to go to or call that special someone in your life and just tell them how much they mean to you.
GODS GRACE AND MERCY
MIKE

never alone

After a long abscence.............I , am back . certain things in life happen that bring us to are knees and all we have is time to reflect and wonder why . I have been going thru some of the most challenging and trying days both professionally and personally as of late .
However i realize that I am not alone nor will i ever be alone because MY GOD loves and cherishes me even when I am at my lowest .The world however stands and chooses to look at things from a light that is truely "sad".
REGUARDLESS IF YOU ARE RICH,POOR,WRIGHT OR WRONG ............YOU NOR I HAS ANY AUTHORITY TO JUDGE ANYONE..........."LET THE ONE WITHOUT SIN, CAST THE FIRST STONE" THINK ON THAT BEFORE YOU START TO GOSSIP AND SLANDER AND JUDGE SOMEONE ELSE FOR YESTERYEARS OR TODAY FOR THAT MATTER. WHO ARE YOU ............ARE YOU GOD???????
GODS LOVE GRACE AND MERCY
MIKE

P.S. IF THIS OFFENDED YOU ALL I SAY IS I FOUND OUT THE HARD WAY THE TRUTH HURTS BUT ALL I CAN SAY IS THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

change is a challenge

Some times life throws so many angles and avenues at a person in such a short period of time that the person can and mostly will feel like "gumby" so to speak . Being pushed pulled and completely torn apart in some ways. I feel all of the above so many emotions and changes are happening in my life that somedays i just don't know wich end is up and wich end is down.
I am a bit wore from the opinions and stressors of the day. However i may be wore i may be tired but nothing in this world will stop me from succeeding. I know that god is always here always watching and i was made to love Him ...............
I cant please everyone all the time none of us can . Being a newbie in christianity is a terrifying and exciting experience and not everyone is going to understand just what iis happening . I am not the perfect chrstian ,,I am not a pastor nor am I a poser I am who I am suppose to be at this time in my life .
I am just a man with a broken past who just wants to relay his message of hope and growth with the youth of today. To me that is my purpose that is my calling and this is my gift......
what is your calling what is your gift only you can answer that.
god bless
mike

when we fall.........

recently i have been made aware of something called dout or should i say i recieved my first piece of public critisim .................when i read the comment i was not taking by surprise i realize that there are many out there in this world who only focus on yesterdays events.
i want to be clear i am not walking around on a high horse saying "look at me" i am perfect . what i am saying is that i am a work in progress and have a long way to go on my journey towards rebuilding my life. i struggle each day like the rest of the world my struggles in past years were alot more difficult than they are now .......i was that person stuck in the past living on hate and anger and really the only person i was angry with was myself.
i am not perfect . i make bad decisions at times however i am moving forward and using those experiences as lessons learned that i do not wish to repeat....i am human abd moving forward takes work and i do stumble and i do fall short on a daily basis all i can do when that happens is pick myself up brush the dirt off my shoulders and move forward .
i have struggled for many years with bad decisions poor choices and addiction.............however i take one monment at a time and keep it moving .............I ,we, all fall short we all make mistakes but who does'nt thats what life is a series of new journies we learn from our experience both good and bad. i ask the first person who has never made a mistake to step forward and do what i am doing, i am not hiding my faults i am exposing them into the light in hopes that todays youth can take a piece of my history and learn from it.......all i can do is pick myself up and move on as i am and have been doing.
god's love
mike